I will rest in you

Lord, Im in the dark,

Seems to me the line is dead when I come calling.

No one there, the sky is falling;

Lord, I need to know.

My mind is playing games again,

Youre right where you have always been.

Take me back to you,

The place that I once knew as a little child;

Constantly the eyes of God watched over me.

Oh, I want to be

In the place that I once knew as a little child,

Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you.

Tell me Im a fool,

Tell me that you love me for the fool I am,

and comfort me like only you can,

and tell me theres a place

Where I can feel your breath

Like sweet caresses on my face again.

Take me back to you,

The place that I once knew as a little child;

Constantly the eyes of God watched over me.

Oh, I want to be

In the place that I once knew as a little child,

Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you.

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you

Take me back to you.

The place that I once knew as a little child;

Constantly the eyes of God watched over me

Oh, I want to be

In the place that I once knew as a little child,

Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you.

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you,

I will rest in you.

Today is a huge stepping stone for me, I'm finally moving on and accepting the fact that my mom is going to be dating, whether i want her to or not. Not that i've told her i dont want her to or anything. But today i'm meeting the guy for the first time, in fact he's out in our living room right now and i'm hiding back here...yes i may of just turned 20 but i still hide back in my room when i'm in 1 of my moods. Better hiding in my room then taking it out on a total stranger. lol. I guess what i'm really trying to say here is, I need prayer. Pray for strength but also for me to be humble, I'm known to say whats on my mind right then and there and not think first. Why do you think my familys nickname for me is Sassy? lol. But Long story short...i just feel tired,..physically, emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. I'm just tired and exausted. I dont feel i have the strength to keep going on..But when i'm feeling like this i remember that God is my rock and my fortress and in him i find refuge and in his arms i find rest.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow

Spring Break Bash

The Basement

6:30 at Cathedral of the Cross

in Centerpoint

BE THERE

Fear Factor

Tomorrow
The Basement
6:45
Cathedral of the Cross
BE THERE!!!

Tomorrow

TOMORROW

6:30

Cathedral of the Cross
in Centerpoint

BE THERE

on my knees

There are days when I feel
The best of me is ready to begin.
Then therere days when I feel
Im letting go and soaring on the wind.
cause Ive learned in laughter or in pain
How to survive.

I get on my knees,
I get on my knees;
There I am before the love that changes me.
See I dont know how, but theres power
When Im on my knees.

I can be in a crowd

Or by myself,
in almost anywhere

When I feel theres a need

To talk with god;

he is emmanuel.

When I close my eyes no darkness there,

Theres only light.

I get on my knees,

I get on my knees;

There I am before the love that changes me.

See I dont know how, but theres power

In the blue skies, in the midnight

When Im on my knees.

I get on my knees,

I get on my knees;

There I am before the love that changes me.

See I dont know how, but theres power

When Im on my,

when Im on my,

When Im on my knees.

44 odd things about me (stole from Kellys blog) lol.

44 ODD Things about you!Fill this out, learn 44 things about your friends, and let them learn 44 things about you!

1. Do you like Bleu Cheese?negative
2. Have you ever been drunk?no
3. Do you own a gun?no
4. What flavor of Kool Aid was your favorite?Grape, cherry
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?yes
6. What do you think of hot dogs?they're not bad.
7. Favorite Christmas movie? I LOVE Once Upon a Christmas and Twice upon a Christmas, Holiday in your Heart, Smoky Mountain Christmas, and The Angel of Pennsylvania Avenue
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Apple Juice
9. Can you do push ups? the girly ones :)
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry?purity ring
11. Favorite hobby?shopping, singing, listening to music, writing, riding 4wheelers, having heart to hearts with my friends
12. Do you have A.D.D.?yes...very bad. lol.
13. What's your favorite shoe? flipflops of course
14. Middle name?Marie
15. Name 3 thoughts you have at this moment: im thirsty, i wanna change clothes, i need to sneeze
16. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? water, sweet tea, dr. pepper
17. Current worry? thats personal
18. Current hate right now? aint saying
20. How did you bring in the New Year? i was really bored so i went to the edge
21. Where would you like to go? anywhere but here
22. Name three people who will complete this? haha...umm...n/a
23. Do you own slippers?yes
24. What color shirt are you wearing right now?its a pretty blue color
5. Do you like sleeping on Satin sheets?I'm sure I would.
26. Can you whistle?yes
27. Favorite color?purple, baby blue, and hott pink
28. Would you be a pirate? will Johnny Depp be there? ;)
29. What songs do you sing in the shower? whatever pops into my head
30. Favorite Girl's Name? Aubrianna Catherine, Audrianna Taylor, Karissa Hope, and Karisma Faith.
31. Favorite boy's name? Jonathan Grant, Michael Paul, Kyle David, and Joshua Kevin
32. What's in your pocket right now?nothing
33. Last thing that made you laugh? Tiff
34. Best bed sheets as a child? strawberry shortcake ones
35. Worst injury you've ever had as a child? dislocated elbow 3 times
36. Do you love where you live?eh, it's ok
38. Who is your loudest friend? oh i have no idea...lol.
39. How many dogs do you have? 2
40. Does someone have a crush on you? idk...
41. What is your favorite book? The B-I-B-L-E yep thats the book for me
42. What is your favorite candy? twix
43. Favorite Sports Team? AUBURN TIGERS!! and of course the Penn State Nittany Lions. and pro...i'd say Dallas Cowboys for football and the Cinncinnattie (sp?) Reds for baseball
44. What song do you want played at your funeral? haha, something CRUNK! :) :)

Tonight!!

The Basement Love Revolution

6:30

Cathedral of the Cross in Centerpoint

BE THERE!!!

Love Letter from God

My Child,

You may not know me, but i know everything about you
-Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up
-Psalm 139:2

I am Familiar with All your ways
-Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered
-Matthew 10:29

For you were made in my image
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being
-Acts 17:28

For you are my Offspring
-Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived
-Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned Creation
-Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book
-Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live.
-Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made
-Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mothers womb
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented by those who dont know me
-John 8:41-44

I am not distant or angry, but am the complete expression of love.
- 1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you
- 1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child and I am your father
- 1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could
- Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father
- Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receieve comes from my hand
- James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs
-Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for you has already been filled with hope
-Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love
- Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore
- Psalm 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing
-Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you
-Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession
-Exodus 19:5

I desire to estabish you with all my heart and all my soul
- Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things
- Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart you will find me
- Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart
- Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires
-Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine
- Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager
- 2 Thessalonians 2: 16-17

I am also the father who comforts you in all your troubles
- 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you
-Psalm 34: 18

As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart
- Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes
Revalation 21:3-4

And i'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth
- Revalation 21:3-4

I am your Father and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus
- John 17:23

For in Jesus my love for you is revealed
- John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being
-Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you
- Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins
-2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and i could be reconciled
- 2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you
-1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love
- Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus you receive me
- 1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you from my love again
- Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen
- Luke 15:7

My question is..
-John 1:12

will you be my child?
- John 1:13

I am waiting for you
-Luke 11:32

Love,
Your Father in Heaven

Love

Have you ever wondered what Love really is...and if it really truly exists? I used to wonder alot if it was even real, because so many people had told me "I love you" and then hurt me more than the people who straight up told me "I hate you". So that made me think "if thats love...then real love must not exist", come on...dont tell me you have never wondered if it really exists and what it really was atleast once in your life!


I used to wonder that every day..every single day. Then I met this guy..he was compassionate, forgiving, he was there to catch me when i fell, he was LOVING, and so much more that i dont even have the words to describe him, it was a "Love at first sight" kinda thing. Of course he was in love with me long before i ever even met him. His name is Jesus. When I met him, i knew that Love is real. Sure some of you may be reading this and thinking "ok..well thats love for her, but what about me!?", want to know something awesome....you can have that Love too, you can know his Love, his amazing Love. He's knocked on the door of your heart, he's just waiting for you to open the door and invite him in. :)



Before I knew his love...I thought i had messed up way too bad and way too much to even get within a 1,000 miles of his Love. But i was so wrong, his love was there waiting for me all along. I just had to realize it and embrace it. When i did...nothing was the same. Sure..things arent perfect, and things wearn't better the next day, I still made mistakes and i still fell down. But now...I have Jesus with me. :) The Love of Jesus is so amazing that there aren't even words to begin to describe it! Romans 5:8 says, "But God demonstrated His own love towards us in this: That while we were still sinners Christ died for us."



But i bet some of you are wondering "If he loves me..why did he let this happen to me?...why did that happen to me?". To be honest...i dont know, because I used to wonder the same thing. But every tear you cry, he holds in his hand and he has never left your side.

Have you ever wanted to have your special quiet time with God everyday? Said to yourself "I'm going to do it everyday without fail" and you never do...just because you get swept up in the busy thing called Life? I know I can raise my hand and say I am 1 of those people.

The last couple days though I have been clinging to God more than ever, and i noticed it was because my life just went downward and upside down. Have you ever seemed to cry out to God more when the times God tough than when he gave you the best day ever? I know i can raise my hand and say i am 1 of those people too.

Have you ever wondered why times get tough and you just cant seem to win, no matter how hard you try..it seems that as soon as you get past 1 obstacle, another one comes along and seems to be even bigger than the last one? and You just get Fed up and yell out "WHY GOD??"..thats happened to me alot. But I have learned that Gods grace is Sufficient, he hears my prayers in spite of all my flaws. And i have learned that I can get more out of God by believing in him for 1 minute, than i could by yelling at him all night!

I have many desires...but my main Hearts Desire is to see young women realize their beauty; to understand that circumstances don't determine what they’re worth; only God has that power, and He says they are “FAR MORE PRECIOUS than Jewels.” Each Girl is rare, beautiful, valuable, treasured, & uniquely created for a special purpose to fulfill, no matter what their failures have been! God sees her heart...He sees her potential & the promise He intended for her to possess. What the world views as broken, God sees as restored; What the world abandons, God wants to USE! When the World says "I have no hope for you", God says "I have a plan and a purpose for you".

Jesus wore this crown

So you could wear this one

One Way

Tomorrow

Cathedral of the Cross

Centerpoint Alabama

6:30

BE THERE!!!!

Just a little piece of my testimony

"For as long as i shall live, i will testify to love. I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough. With every breath i take i will give thanks to God above. For as long as i shall live, I will testify to love."

That is the chorus to 1 of my favorite songs. Its been around for a long time, whenever i listen to it...it really explains my faith in God. Sometimes I dont know whether i'm coming or going, But as long as I trust in God and give him my all...he has me. God is on my side and through him, NOTHING is impossible. I know i'm not perfect, but in his eyes..he see's something more. In everything I do, i hope he see's reflections of him. His love is the reason I'm alive, his love has restored my heart.

I remember back before God got ahold of me, I was sitting right where i am now...on my bed and I was so depressed..on the inside...on the outside nobody even knew. I was an expert at pulling off that fake smile. I was sitting here and i had lost all hope for everything..i believed in God..but i wasnt really living for him or embracing him. I felt so lost, alone, and abandoned. Inside i was screaming and dying and i honestly wanted to die. I was so broken and destroyed on the inside. But I knew a girl named Lauren Walls..and i'd talk to her almost daily on the phone and she kept telling me "You need to come to the basement, you need to come to the well". So 1 day i told her "hey...i'm commin to the basement on Tuesday" and It was the week of Valentines day and so Matt was speaking on Love and he said that night "I cant tell you how many times girls tell me.."matt I cut myself just to make me feel" i cant tell you how many of them have showed me the razor blade marks on their arms" and then he said "But you know what, you still may have those physical scars...but God can take away those emotional scars and you can feel whole and worthy. YOU are his Princess" and I just lost it and started crying. That night at the basement I came back to Jesus and i have been on fire for him ever since. Certain people go through certain things for a reason...and maybe...the very thing that tore me apart, could be what helps put someone else back together. :)

Romans 5:8 says, "But God demonstrated His own love towards us in this: That while we were still sinners Christ died for us". To me that scripture basically explains itself...Jesus loved us (and that means you too!) so much, that even though we sin and we mess up and we fall and just get into all kinds of jams. HE still died for us, so that we could spend Eternity with him. To me that is just amazing, its so awesome that sometimes my mind cant even comprehend it all. My God is mighty to save...thats for sure!

Only in America

this is Funny... because it's True..

1. Only in America......can a pizza get to your house faster than an ambulance.
2. Only in America......are there handicap parking places in front of a skating rink.
3. Only in America......do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.
4. Only in America......do people order double cheeseburgers, large fries, and a diet coke.
5. Only in America......do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.
6. Only in America......do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.
7. Only in America......do we use answering machines to screen calls and then have call waiting so we won't miss a call from someone we didn't want to talk to in the first place.
8. Only in America......do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.
9. Only in America......do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning'bloodsucking creatures'.
10. Only in America......do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.

EVER WONDER????

Why the sun lightens our hair, but darkens our skin?
Why women can't put on mascara with their mouth closed?
Why don't you ever see the headline "Psychic Wins Lottery"?
Why is "abbreviated" such a long word?
Why is it that doctors call what they do "practice"?
Why is it that to stop Windows, you have to click on "Start"?
Why is lemon juice made with artificial flavor, and dishwashing liquidis made with real lemons?
Why is the man who invests all your money called a broker?
Why is the time of day with the slowest traffic called rush hour?
Why isn't there mouse-flavored cat food?
When dog food is new and improved tasting, who tests it?
Why didn't Noah swat those two mosquitoes?
Why do they sterilize the needle for lethal injections?
Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
Why are they called apartments when they are all stuck together?
If con is the opposite of pro, is Congress the opposite ofprogress?
If flying is so safe, why do they call the airport the terminal?

~~~~On a bar of Dial soap: "Directions: Use like regular soap."(and that would be how??...)
On some Swanson frozen dinners: "Serving suggestion: Defrost."(but, it's "just" a suggestion.)
On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert (printed on bottom): "Do not turn upside down."(well...duh, a bit late, huh!)
On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding: "Product will be hot afterheating."(...and you thought????...)
On packaging for a Rowenta iron: "Do not iron clothes onbody."(but wouldn't this save me more time?)
On Boot's Children Cough Medicine:"Do not drive a car or operate machinery after taking this medication."(We could do a lot to reduce the rate of construction accidents if we could just get those 5-year-olds with head-colds off those forklifts.)
On Nytol Sleep Aid: "Warning: May cause drowsiness."(and... I'm taking this because???....)
On most brands of Christmas lights: "For indoor or outdoor use only."(as opposed to...what?)
On Sunsbury's peanuts: "Warning: contains nuts."(talk about a news flash)
On an American Airlines packet of nuts: "Instructions: Open packet, eat nuts."(Step 3: maybe, uh...fly Delta?)

Days like today, I think of this song called "Healer" by Hillsong United.

In the 1st verse, there's a line that goes "You heal all my disease" and the 1st line of the chorus is "I believe you're my healer". Thats what I believe, and what i'm riding on...especially today. If that makes any sense.

I'm really going on what God said about how he wont give me more than i can handle, when i think of that..i'm reminded about something Paula White said, about how "If God brings you to it, he'll bring you through it". I mean i believe that with all of my heart, there's no doubt about that. But for the past 4 years I have been battling constant chronic ear infections...they attack both ears..but mainly my right ear. There's even been times where they attack both ears at the same time. But i believe that God is my divine Healer. It's just I get frustrated that i still get them constantly after 4 years of continuous (sp?) praying for healing. They really knock me for a loop, and 90% of the time the fluid that builds up around my ear drum brings on extreme Vertigo. I mean I'm still praying and believing for God to heal me...its just i'm getting frustrated, real frustrated. But in a way sometimes i think that it may be God testing my faith, to see if I will continue to praise him and seek him and trust in him that he's going to heal me. I think thats what he's doing...but idk...i grow and learn new things in my relationship with him all the time.

About 2 years ago, when i was still going to World Outreach Center...this lady at my church gave me a book called "The Memory Bible on Healing" and its got 31 scriptures on it about just Healing...its by this guy named Mike Murdock, and underneath each scripture it has his translation of it. I've been flipping through it alot lately, Mark 11:24 says "Therefore I say unto you, What things you desire, when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you shall have them". To me that means...Believe. Just believe. If I pray for healing but dont expect it, i dont think it will come..I think thats been my problem. I've prayed for healing...but i haven't fully believed it will happen. Huh...well, what do you know. I just taught myself a lesson. Dont you just love when you do that to yourself!? lol.

That makes me remember in the movie "Facing the Giants", when the stranger told Grant Taylor about how the 2 Farmers were praying for rain and 1 Farmer just sat at home and prayed, but the other actually went out into his fields and prepared them. Which one do you think believed God would answer their prayer for Rain? It reminds me of my situation in a way, I can pray and thats that...or I can pray and actually believe..and know..and trust that he WILL heal me!

okay...I think I'm done babbling now. If you read all of this, you are a true friend and I love you! lol.

Tonight

Tonight...The Basement

Cathedral of the Cross

Centerpoint

6:30

BE THERE!!!

the new year..

So i keep coming across the question "whats your new years resolution?" and "what do you plan on doing differently in 2009?" so i decided to give it alot of thought and i realized that there is ALOT i want to change about my life. Some i cant control, but there is plenty that i can control.

1.I'd like to over come my fear of failure. My whole life I've feared it more than anything..I used to strive so hard to be the best at everything that it had alot of negative effects on me. I've gotten better about it, but it still has a powerful hold on me and my life.

2. I'd like to be able to let go of things that have happened in my life...losing people that i love. It still holds such a strong grip on me and it really weighs me down and 1/2 the time i dont realize it until i start thinking about it.

3. I'd like to confront my fear of change...and thats pretty much just about everything..losing people i love, losing contact, growing apart...Thats 1 of my main things i'd like to change.
I'd like to confront all of this beginning in 2009 by putting on the armor of God. I am giving myself to God. Yeah we both know I've said that before, and i meant it...i just didnt follow though. But thats why this time I'm giving myself to him and him alone! Not him and the world, HIM ALONE!

Life just gets hard some times...it really does. The 1 thing I hate is as Matt Pitt puts it "Whispers in the Dark", and we all have them..here are some examples...

1.) you're too fat
2.) you're ugly
3.) you're not skinny enough
4.)you'll never amount to anything
5.)you've got nothing to live for

and thats just some of them and im going to stop listening to the whispers in the dark, they are nothing but lies from Satan and he is under my feet.

It says in the bible in Romans 4, to have faith is to be righteous <{in right standing with God} and when you're righteous he can only protect you, bless you, and use you! Which is exactly what my heart desires. So no matter what change comes my way, ...and it definantly will!! I will be in right standing with him, trusting him with all of my heart, and giving my every day, every word, every action, and every emotion to him! This way I dont have to get ready for the future and always be scared, I know that yesterday, today, and tomorrow is the Lords, and I dont have to worry!

Things I'd like to do differently:
Be a Witness everywhere I go.
Have a more Christ like attitude when it comes to my brother.
Love when i dont think i can.
Change the world!!
Be WAY more consistant in my bible & prayer time.

Balancing my time in order to have my quiet time with God is something that i will have to do "on purpose!" At times I will just have to say NO to other things. Life is tough no matter what your age is and we have to make a choice to make the time to spend with God or not! Something really cool that God is teaching me, is to simply BELIEVE IN HIM. Believe everything His Word say, not just part. When Christ is put first, nothing is impossible!

Beauty

So Tori finally talked me into getting a blog, so i thought i'd give it a go.

When i was trying to think about what to write the only thing that could come to my mind was Beauty and Grace of Jesus. When i think about that..I think of what my friend Heather always has told me, "You are Fearfully and Wonderfully made in the Lords image". What that means to me is..you are a beautiful creation of God. He knew you before you were in the womb and he created you for a purpose. He doesnt want you to be perfect..you dont have to be a size 2 or the beauty queen or the valedictorian of your highschool. Jesus thinks you are to die for.

1 thing the Lord has constantly been putting on my heart lately is how i conduct myself...now i'm not meaning being prim and proper or anything. lol. But how i conduct myself around my family..(this is where the grace comes in). Now i know that you all have a family and my guess is that you dont always get along with them..Lord knows I dont get along with my family 1/2 the time, mainly my brother. I always pray to God, "God please change his heart...let him live for you." And i get so frustrated when he doesnt..but then God made me realize, if I want him to change his life and become a Christian, I need to have a MUCH more Christ Like attitude around him. Act with GRACE when we have our moments instead of just saying "whatever freak" and going/storming off somewhere. I mean sure I am sarcastic and i have got my whole attitude goin on, but the Lord wants me to act with Grace. JD isnt confused by the Gospel..he's mainly confused by me. Thats why I need to start acting with Grace and a Christ like attitude around him.